A lot has happened this year, a lot. Not all good. In the past one year, I am minus some friends… and family.

Now it’s time to move on.

I was looking back at last year’s emails-and let’s just say I had more friends last year. I don’t miss those I lost, not all of them anyway. I sometimes miss those emails though. The emails that said that I am a good friend for them through their thick and thin, and that I am a matured enough person to not judge them just because some things had gone much differently than I’d have expected them to….

Nice stuff to write… not very sincere though . Lots have happened, yes- and I’ve been locked out- out of the door, in the dark… suddenly I’m not that friend anymore, suddenly I am a part of the whole outer world- no one special… just a face in the crowd that no one looks out for.

I am the same person though- the same friend, I am still not judging and I won’t either. But it’s not up to me anymore, I guess. It takes two.

Moving on now. I wish them well. I guess even they did not know what they meant when those words were uttered. I think I did though, and I was here to tell them that… only that, no one looked my way.

No, not really.

I saved some words. That’s not too bad!